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Name? ::: Nicky, Nicolette Birthplace ::: Long Island, NY Age ::: 16 Stats ::: Single Current location ::: My Basement Hair color ::: Brown with blond highlightsps Zodiac sign? ::: Cancer Height? ::: 5'6 Morbid Angel - Dark Angel
Dragged away screeching inside something cold about this eearie even dark, scary even if it's desired something inside telling me to break Infront of everything that matters I can't stay I gotta run away from everything I love
Open Window Descending Feet Ringing Phone Phone Unanswered Lost What Was Needed Only to be Regained Sit on an Uplift Looking Unto Forever Forever Fades It's Being Blocked Enjoy the View Close Eyes & Walk Away Know It's Hard Know It'll Be Okay  Free Counter
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9.30.2004
Some things you take for granted until they're gone.
And then when they are back, you could never be happier.
ha.
Jealousy is probably the worst feeling.
Too bad that when you have it, it dominates your body.
Meriamo, I love you more than anything.
Love Always,
Nicky Marie.*
PS: HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAUREN I LOVE YOU!!
Posted at 06:42 pm by xWastedYouthx
9.27.2004
Here's a story of a girl..
If i wrote a novel about my life, it would be the size of a three textbooks piled on top of one another.
It would be the most interesting book you'd read.
And it would make everyone look ten times better, smarter, and more attractive.
My life, has been lived, to make an incredible story.
You wanna know about something,
I bet you i have a story for it.
And im only 15.
Dahae.*
Posted at 07:41 pm by xWastedYouthx
9.23.2004
Nothing Can Defy Us..
Nothing Can Defy Us..
Nothing Can Defy Us..
Nothing Can Defy Us..
Nothing Can Defy Us..
Nothing Can Defy Us..
..ive never been so inlove, because after this, its definitally forever..
and literally, nothing, can defy us
Meriamo. I love you Babe.
dahae.*
Posted at 05:09 pm by xWastedYouthx
9.21.2004
I ripped off my toenail, it hurts
and it bled alot.
i could kill my dog for making me to that.
its 1036 and my brother is still away,
"excuse me sir can i borrow that shotty"
wow, sorry.
my feet are cold, gunna go.
night night.
love always,
nicky marie.*
dahae <3 meriamo
always [11.3]
nothing can defy us
Posted at 10:37 pm by xWastedYouthx
9.20.2004
Life doesnt seem worth living anymore...
"I can remember, parking lot nights
What did they mean to you?
Wrapping my arms around your body
Protecting and holding you
And holding you
Looking inside of my heart
It was such a big surprise
We've gone and done it again
Does he love you like I can?
Like I can
Maybe it wasn't good enough, but I gave you all I could
Will he stay up late if you can't sleep
Cause baby I would
And baby I could
And you're the grim reaper staring down
And letting me feel this way
The ocean whispers but never told me
You'd leave me this way
Leave me this way
If you told me you were happy
If you told me that you miss me
Is it something that I can't see
It's something I can't be
Something I can't be
If you told me
IF YOU TOLD ME
Maybe it wasn't good enough, but I gave you all I could
Would he stay up late if you can't sleep
Cause baby I would I would
Good Enough, Good Enough"
Love Always,
Nicky Marie.*
Posted at 10:01 pm by xWastedYouthx
9.17.2004
You were my everything...
..now i am your nothing.
so tomarrow is my grandparents 50th anniversary party, and i hope its good.
it should be.
so tiff and nicky are not so tiff and nicky anymore.
which sucks, hard.
i love her.
i really do, and after that conversation
i cried over her more than i ever did in my life.
its hard.
and it sucks to lose your parents trust.
i mean really blow it.
and it sucks to know that your parents stole your diary,
and read it.
and knows everything from november 2003 to july 2004.
everything.
sex drugs and rock n roll.
everything.
it sucks royally.
and tonight was maybe the best nights i had in a while.
i babysat. my brother and sister from 730-ehh soon.
and my sister fell asleep around 830. then it started to rain.
so i took my dog and my three year old brother to sit outside in the rain.
on my stoop, under the overhang.
and it was cute.
will call me and played his ocerana.
it was sweet. cause he sucks at it. but the whole feeling of it was great.
my brother was laying across my lap as i was sitting indian style and i was happy
i told him "i love you" and he said "i love you too dah" with the biggest smile on his face,
that it nearly melted my heart.
so i brought out his pillow and comforter and we layed outside under his blanket and he fell asleep,
while my dog was laying on the steps watching gaurd.
it was incredible.
then i woke him up to put him inside. we layed in his bed and the dog jumped up ot lay down with us.
i honestly felt like a mother.
and i know that if i did have a child,
id be a damn good mother.
it was great, and ive never felt like that towards my siblings.
normally i would want to throw them into walls,
but for some reason i want to just call them mine.
which they practically are.
god, will and i went to the mall today with his mom and joey[his nephew].
joey is 1 year and some months.
it was incredible, how many people asked us if he was ours.
then when we were in a store we started talking to the chick who worked there.
we talked about how much a suit cost now.
and she replyed with ,"would you be needing a suit for a wedding?"
it was weird. will and i looked at each other, and we're like,
how old do these people think we are??!?!
as i was feeding joey ice cream and wills mom said id be a good mother.
and i think that was a great comment that ive recieved.
well my mom is home,
and i have to take ryley for a walk.
chris sorry for the lack of updates,
hope this makes up for it lol.
love always,
nicky marie.*
Posted at 11:04 pm by xWastedYouthx
9.10.2004
Ran my whole life in the ground...
My cousin OWNS.
shit happened.
and it sucks.
I love will.
nicky.*
Posted at 11:35 pm by xWastedYouthx
9.6.2004
you think you have it bad.
you dont.
welcome to my world.
if you notice this blog withering away,
dont worry you wont be reading it for much longer.
its slowly being deleted.
i cant afford to keep it.
..nicky..
myspace.com::dont post comments, ill delete them,
dont ask me to be your friend, i will decline,
and my pictures, there are only two up.
dont expect much from me online anymore.
Posted at 04:06 am by xWastedYouthx
9.3.2004
I've Come To Summon You..
Looking for: someone who can handle explosives..
Need: Blowing up of Kentucky.
went to chris' today ^_^
then went to wills ^_^
"why is the bed banging agianst the wall?"
-"we turned over"
"no fucking now please...do it later"
-"we cant mom, calm down"
"HOW CAN YOU EXPECT ME TO BE CALM!"
hahahahhaha.
I WANT TO SEE H.U.G
mmmm.
so yea my aunt came over today, and we redid my kitchen.
Morbid Angel is tres bien.
going on wills boat tomarrow.
since an add for it is being placed in the newspaper.
cause they are moving.
TO FUCKING KENTUCKY.
someone fucking kill me now.
honestly.
.Praise The Fallen.
Love Always,
Nicky Marie.*
Posted at 11:03 pm by xWastedYouthx
9.1.2004
These are my confessions...
i love this song.
and i think i love usher too
wow, who knew.
last night was fucked up,
where did we leave off.
whats eating up your insides?
what kept you from doing the desprete?
what got you so pissed?
how can you still love me...
meh.
im home from maine.
and im home for, the rest of summer untill i got back up to VT.
which hopefully will would come.
even though im scared shitless
thanks sharron.
my father, my new step mom, my step sister and my new sister..
my new family.
he's really moving.
god fucking damnit.
its like hes asking for me to break up with him.
if its what he wants, ill do it.
even if it kills me.
and she will be loved...
love always,
nicky marie.*
Posted at 10:48 am by xWastedYouthx
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